The Puzzling Enigma Ahead

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift - that is why we call it the present.

 What is to happen tomorrow is definitely very hazy. I can't see the paths that has yet to be taken. Some advised not to look too far ahead. Let the future be a puzzling enigma, for myself to figure out every piece there is to complete this riddle of life.

As all Fifth Formers are experiencing right now, our school life is over and done with. My previous post talks about the summarized memories of secondary school life. Very much summarized. Having to read Sue Li's note in Facebook struck thoughts in my head. As many know, at least friends who understood me, Angelyn Ho is a complicated, deep-thinking Homosapien. I don't tend to look at things in a simple manner. Well, this is just a trait in me. A permanent one. I may say it's a vice, but then again, it could be one of my individualistic trait.

The blurry roads ahead will remain blurry as far as I'm concerned. It's not getting clear anytime soon. It'll take a few years. I really wanna blog longer and of better quality (as this is just a short one), but time doesn't yield to me. As I have many other events ahead, e.g. Yuk Choy gathering, cousin's wedding, Christmas in Singapore and another wedding, there'll be longer posts with overloaded photos.

Ha! Another puzzling thing, I am awaiting for a call from Starbucks after I handed in my second applicant's form. I can be very persistent, so god damn it!, give me the bloody job! Lol.

Oh yeah, I haven't updated on the Penang Trip; 8 girls. 3 days. 2 nights. 1 island. :)

I'll be away in Singapore from 21st to the 27th Dec 09. Cheerios for now!

Hybernating session.

As one chapter closes

And it's time to pen a new one!

The chapter of formal education is finally over. After 5 years in SMC and 11 years of schooling, it has finally ended yesterday, at 3.30pm.

As SPM is gone and done with, I can't help but to think that time goes so quickly, and sometimes it's hard to believe that this part of your life has ended. Why I say so? Because yesterday during Chemistry Paper 3, I had a quick flashback of my secondary school life. Over a period of half an hour, I just stared at the blank space (although Anith was in my view), reviewing the life that I went through in Main Convent. All the moments where I was jumping around like some hooligan, or crying over a petty matter, or just plain chilling out with the girl friends, every moment just went by, in front of my very own eyes. The visuals formed were very real. It's like a movie trailer of Life at SMC or something. Amazing really, with all that has happened throughout these years. Be it good or bad. It's certainly quite a memory.

As cliched as it sounds, I feel so heavy-hearted to come into terms of ending school life. A few months ago, I just can't wait to vamoose from all the hullabaloo we call 'school', and enjoy hassle-free life. Well now that it's here, I don't wanna not go to school. I wanna wear my turquoise uniform and my dirty school shoes and sing lame, patriotic songs every morning. I wanna get to class and complain about the dirtiness. I wanna group up and ber-juice with my friends. I wanna go around the school looking for teachers. I wanna buy the fried chicken from the canteen. I wanna just hang outside the koperasi, going back to class late after recess, having my name jotted down in the yellow book by Pn Devi. All the insignificant matters that really made real significance now.

All the memories of school life, no matter how measly or unimportant it sounds, really did made a mark in this chapter. In fact, it's a crucial point of the synopsis of my life. They say that school life is probably one of the best times in life. Totally agree. So what for freedom, and getting up late every morning, and just do nothing but lazing around from 10 in the morning till 10 at night? Sooner or later, we'll have to make a choice. And yes, a very important decision that an adolescent has to make. The next step to tertiary education!

So where am I to go from here? Thanks to National Service that will be taking 3 months of my time. I think I'm very much inclined to taking Form 6. I'm absolutely cool with it. In fact, the inclined line is very much horizontal already. I suppose it's because I had already shut down all other options. I considered International Baccalaureate before. Refer to my rant about IB. It sucks to not know what I want. Right now, I don't have an aim in life yet. What is to become of me after this? Oh, what a bummer.

Anyways, I will definitely miss school a lot. After yesterday, I believe I won't be able to see most of my friends after this. Maybe during results day, but that's a long way to go. However, ever since the creation of social networking sites, and the internet as a whole, we can all communicate at any time and any place in any part of the world. :)

So a few last words to my beloved alma mater,

So long, farewell, I bid you say adieu. To the magnificent grand lady that stands tall, the mak cik's delicious ayam goreng, the skipping of classes for all sorts of reasons, and the memories recollected, sustained within the walls of Convent. All the good ol' days hanging out with friends and all there is to remember will be cherished. One chapter closes. It's time to pen a new one! One day, I'll look back and reminisce the young child at heart clad in a turquoise uniform, walking along the corridors of the second home we came to know and love, and now, leaving with a heavy heart but with a chapter full of bittersweet memoirs.