2011 - Year of the Crazy

I'm spending my new years at home this time. I have my tall boy and the internet. That will do. Sit back and relax, and sink myself with loads of Running Man (giving a shot at korean variety shows). I'm not partying like my fellow peers, but instead, I'm spending some time with le mom. And my beer.

Ushering in 2012!

It has been a crazy year. And I do mean it, there's a whole lot of crazy for the past 12 months. There were many firsts, definitely, but hopefully not the last. I tried different things. Some crazy, spontaneous things. I'm 19. My last year as a wild and rebellious teenager! Ahhh, youth. They say, you're only young once. Enjoy the time being. Go out there; run free, be stupid and restless!

But only within reason, of course.

2011. Not just the year of firsts and craziness, but it also goes about relationships. Friendships were formed, developed and deteriorated. Some perhaps, are permanently erased. One thing I've learned about this year that is about to end in a matter of minutes, is that some people are not worthy of me. As selfish as it sounds, but nonetheless true. Some are just not worthy of my time, care, and compassion. If I find you repulsive, arrogant, or just plain annoying, I bid you goodbye.

Sometimes we just need the strength and courage (some god damn balls!) to voice out our true feelings.

2012 is upon us. A new year; the year of change.

On a deeper level, I think 2011 opened my eyes to an uglier world. A world of pathetic and incompetent ugly. I speak this on a personal peer-to-peer level, and also on the national level. The General Election is just months away. As for me, I have yet to be eligible to vote, but to those who are and want a change for our beloved homeland (and yes, Malaysia is in a dire need to change), please vote righteously.

This year has been a whirlwind. A whirlwind of agony, challenge, and self-discovery. Personally, I think I have grown. Throughout the many months of turmoil, I have grown in terms of personal development. I reached my emotional peak at one point; the hurt, sadness and tears as well as a climax of happiness and ecstasy. 

I have discovered emotions in the many points of my life, but not as much as I did this year.

I am closer to discovering myself.

There were things I wish I'd mended, words I wish I'd said. Nevertheless, things turned out the way as it should be. This is life. We regret some decisions, we wish we could turn back time and make amends, but life doesn't work that way.

Accepting the fact, and moving on, merci beacoup.

2012 is going to be quite a year. It's not going to be easy, but I can sense great things ahead. We can, if only we try. And we have to try hard.

So long farewell 2011, you were amazing. The emotional turmoil I've been through cannot beat the simple happiness of true friends, loved ones, and family.

New Year's Resolution: Start my financial planning, learn not to give a fuck with some, and more self-discovery!

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year and helloooooooo 2012!

 

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The new and improved me